Choking on you de Brutal Pain

I try to get up,
but i jus stumble.
i try to reach in,
but you push me away.
this air you blow on to my face.
making my soul all out of place.
I try to breathe you in.
but you jus come straight back out.
i cant breathe when im with you.
i try to show you how i feel,
but you beat me to it,
and its clear you dont feel the same.
So why should i bother?
why should i fuking care?
You told them all i run when you call.
but then why am i here when your screaming my name,
so loud and clear,
but u just dont understand,u were my air.
and now youve left me all alone,
im just a broken soul without a home.
I tried to breathe you in.
but you jus came straight back out.
i couldnt breathe when i was you.
but now without you i cant breathe at all.
i tried to show you how i feel,
but you bea me to it,
and its clear you dont feel the same.
So why should i bother?
why should i fuking care?
i shouldnt because you were never there.
but loves so fucking weird.
no matter what happens ill always want you and beg for your return.
beg for your return